hey guys thnx for your post. it dose help to see others have gone through some of the same %#@&#! im goin through.
Man i hate being like this. i see no way out of my hell ive created myself. today buger king called and wanted to know if i wanted to come into work. i had my mom talk and tell them no. haha im such a %#@&#!. ever sence i found out what my job would consist of i have freaked myself out over it. i thought i would be cashier but they need me to cook. the manager is relly serious about his store being the fastest.
thing is the more i sit here i get worse. i get afriade of goin upstairs. of what the neihbors will think of me never leaving the house.
I dont want to tell my po this because i dont want to be seen as some one that is scared of the world. so i put on a front everytime i go report.
sometimes i think im just using my anxiety as an excuse. so i dont know i said fuk it and i started taking my ad's. today, hopefully i can see my family doc and get my kolopin after the 1st. thats alot of days just to sit home tho.
i relly feel im the biggest loser anyone can possibly be. who dosent leave the house when the weather is this nice?
i see alot of you at least have jobs. why is it so hard for me?
im relly hoping medication will help me get out of this mess. if not i dont know how much longer i can hold on.