I'm so sorry. I know exactly what you are going through. My boyfirend of 3 years has broken up with me telling me he doesnt love me and never did. He told me he wanted it to work so badly but knows it wont. I'm a total mess too. I've only been in Canada for 7 months (im from the UK) and I moved here to be with him. Now im the one having to move out, ive just started a new high preasure job a week before he split with me and all of my family and friends are 1000's of miles away from me. lean on your friends as much as you can - they will love you and want to help you. just know you're not alone; i understand exactly what you are going through and the pain is unbearable.