Your not in love with him, your in love with the dream you have about him. Your punishing yourself for being a good person and not recognizing a bad person. No, ofcourse you are not going to understand him, you don't think like him. He doesn't care about anyone, he gave you what he thought you needed so he could play you and take from you. No, he is never going to have any regrets, he is not capable of that, so you might as well realize that is just not going to happen.

These preditors are very good at what they do, you were carefully picked and groomed for his needs. Nice people don't see it coming, they don't think like these preditors and these preditors are well aware of that. Try not to be so hard on yourself for this, learn from it and be very careful from now on.

Dont waste any more love on this person. You can love, yes, he cant, and it is as simple as that. I am very sorry that you had to experience this, I am sure you never deserved it, your probably a very good natured person. And you have to be very careful from now on, not to be in love with love, or the dream. It will only make you a target.

Open Eyes