That's what's eating me up inside. I really think she left me only because her friends told her to. We were working on some bumps in our relationship (I was a bit too needy) and that's just what you do in a relationship. But I think she got in a bit too close with her friends (who are all single, mind you) and she just wanted to live the single life.
I've tried so hard to reach out to her and it's killing me that she isn't contacting me back, or answering the phone. I haven't called her since November, but being unemployed, all I do all day is sit on my couch and think about her. Even when I try to mask my feelings with something I enjoy, it all comes back to thoughts of her.

I think I would feel a little bit better if I were able to talk to her. I'm not over her and I don't know when I will be able to be. It's been a long time and it hurts so much. I break out into tears often and living is just too hard to handle, especially with Valentine's Day coming up.

I'm taking anti-depressants and have been for a month and a half, but I don't think they are doing much of anything to help me. I really don't have any friends, either, other than my roommate. He's never had issues with dating, so he doesn't really want to hear my complaints, so I'm just ... so very lost. Every day is a constant struggle.