This is how messed up my head is....cause I go back and forth like a yo yo with feeling ok then feeling darker then the darkest soul.
I called T again and left message this time, no text.
She called back.
Her text feature is not working on her phone. And, I her and I have gone over before that I need to call and leave voice messages just not texts. And, I shouldn't have let 3 days go by from my text without realizing she didn't get it.
See, I try and punish myself thinking I am that lousy of a person that even my T doesn't care anymore.
It is the sneaky Monster inside of me that makes me have these thoughts and tries to get so deep into my skin to believe everyone hates me and makes me want to die.
Truly, my name here should be Twisted_Mind!!