Yes, I am still alive. But now I'm 21 years old. And yes, I still struggle daily with drinking. Honestly I've been drinking all week. And right now I'm listening to "Snow" by Red Hot Chili Peppers...my buddy back in the day used to blast this song all the time...we were messing around with H those days........this was kind of our song to make us "make light" of the situation, I guess.

Anyways. My bud is going to come over, get me a pack of cigs. I've been very disoriented lately, considering the fact that I have been re-diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder and borderline ADD...and PTSD...

I would go into further detail about my 21st bday but right now I don't want to "talk" about it.

Peace.