There's this guy at work I've been sort of interested in for awhile now, and recently things started heading in the right direction. We made plans for him to stop over after work one day. I was looking forward to it all week, then that day came and I noticed I was being very short with several coworkers (not him), very defensive, and just generally grumpy, like I was trying to push everyone away. It's not the first time I've done this, but it is the first time I've connected the cause and effect. I'm not sure why I do this, but I wonder if it might be because I'm either embarrassed that people might say something it or if it's because I'm slightly panicked/anxious or if its something else. Anyone else do this? As soon as I realized what was happening, I apologized and tried to stop acting this way. I've posted previously about being afraid of intimacy/having social anxiety and I assume this is related, but I'm trying to connect some dots here. We had a good time when he came over (at least I thought so, and he's been talking to me since then), watched a movie. Our relationship is still at the friendship level, but I do find him attractive and hope it could develop into something more in the future. But that's besides the point.