I sorta have a plan..will address two concerns at once.
Going to a mood disorder program - to help me learn how to cope differently because my way isnt good and I am tired of the battle. Secondly by attending that program I will be in a safe place to try the med out and have support around me if needed.

Next obstacle is I need to figure out how to work a nutritionist into the plan. I am still logging my meals and am restricting when it comes to adding fats into the plan. Calories arent where they should be especially with the amount of physical work I do....need to figure that all out..

thx all