Well to start off I always feel alienated by everyone because none of my peers are really going through the same thing as me it seems (or they just hide it very,very well) I have SAD, depression, personality disorder, and am introverted and shy. I have a very bad self image like I look up "ugly" people as well as models and compare myself to both and always see myself as ugly, I feel like I am a whole new brand of ugly. I have felt pretty and people tell me I am pretty all the time but I don't care. Same thing with my size, I feel super fat though I see people my age bigger then me all the time (my parents pick at my weight) I'm not even that fat, just over average. I feel so alone, I just want to end it all...

My older 1/2 sister and 1/2 brother had each other when they grew up with my parents, but i have no one, my mom is bipolar and really believes in her mind that she is right about everything.. and my dad is just awfully strict and mean and awkward. I hate my life.... I am also home schooled so i literally never--ever leave the house and there is no where that is walking distance so I'm in an endless abyss of sameness,and despair for something better

I don't have a close relationship with anyone except my best friend who lives 8 hours away... I always miss my mom (because she works 7am-9pm and goes to bed as soon as she is home, dad works 1am-11pm lays down at 12 or so and wakes up at 11pm) and I'm usually lonely, but when I am with her we clash worse than bulls. And she doesn't accept me for being Goth which hurts because that is a HUGE part of my life. I also feel I can not tell her anything, and like everything I do is bad (she nit-picks the music i listen to all the time and my makeup saying i scare her sometimes..) I am not sure if I am posting this to vent, or if I want advice (its appreciated)... I just feel very alone and pathetically worthless and wanted to "talk" to someone..