Wow Lynn. As if I needed any more reason to respect you, you're as you are in the face of all that? You have my respect.

You really, really should feel proud of yourself for being as you are in the face of everything. That speaks of an incredible inner strength many can only envy, myself included. You should feel good about that.

Oh, hey, and about the gun and sleepwalking thing, while I don't know how able someone is to perform detailed tasks someone is while in that state (I know my mom's crowning achievement was her depleting the freezer of ice cream one night...we laugh about that one a lot), I know that Smith and Wesson offers trigger locks built into some models of their revolvers, and that Taurus makes a few models with locks. Both require a key to render the gun operable. I don't know if that'd be something of interest, but I figured I'd let you know.

Stay strong, and God bless.