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MISERABLE ME · Feb 11, 2012, 07:37 PM

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Originally Posted by iamspecial

When I came to PC in Jan 2011, it's been a great support for me, i have met some really nice and supportive people who have taken me under their wing. PC has given me a reason to live at times but i have had my times where it's been too much for me to handle and i have walked away. Feeling like part of a family while here has helped me more than i thought it would b/c of the mess my rl family are. Being here has helped me but i don't say that to the people that have helped me, they think i'm a shut door when they are talking to me b/c of my "auto responce" that i have due to past issues, but the truth is....me walking away and thinking about what they have said to me, i start to take it in and agree that they are right with what they have said and take it on board but i never seem to let them know so i am saying it now. Well i think I have really blown it the other night. While, for the most part, I've been able to control my emotions and keep an even keel, I made a massive mistake and sent a picture to someone that i shouldn't have and the person thought i wasn't responding to the messages or phone call (i did reply and i can honestly say that my phone never rang or if it did i would have picked it up) and for that, I am truly sorry. I had a breakdown and lost it. (things have been getting on top of me) I can only hope that I will be forgiven by other people that got told about what happened. If not, I can truly understand. Really wish now that i had been better and sent it to the person i was meant to send it too.

For those who have forgiven me, thank you so much!! I have deffo learned from this and will never ever do it again. I know now when i'm in that bad place to just turn my phone off and not come online. (i know i didn't come online this time but still i know better now) Still love you all. If you want me to go away i will do.

I hope that I can continue to become a better person and, at the very least, make someone smile or laugh again.

Thank you so much!

Special

Dear Chel I am not upset with you in any way at all and I hope you keep coming round because I will miss you and what ever you did I am sure everyone else will forgive you also and know this that you are a great and special person and will always have a friend in me for you and a few others on here I have become very close too and very fond of and if it was not for you all I am not sure I would have made it through this last year and for that I am grateful to you for you have helped me more then you will know and are closer to me then any of my rl family and do hope that You will feel better hun I know it has been rough on you but do not Give up 5 minutes before the maracle happens and if you ever need someone to talk to you can talk to me no matter what and I shall never judge you for the way you feel for I am the same way i do not open up alot but i am always here for you sending you many Hugz.