T,
I'm sorry. I really tried... I wanted it to happen so badly...but I can't do it...I don't know how... It's like swimming lessons all over again. Yes I could learn to swim but first I have to let my feet off the bottom of the pool....

I'm sorry there is too many fears of emotions and too many control issues for me to let you help me. I'm too tired of banging my head against the brick wall. I sent the "I quit" email and I know you won't email back. But our last session was our LAST session.

Thanks for everything.