I am so sorry to about your past I read yor profile. I just joined, I am on east coast The only things that I can suggest are 1st take a afew deep breaths, till you start to feel more relaxed then close your eyes and tell yourself you (are not)alone and you will start to feel better. if you haven't yet see if your city or county have any programs that can help you for a while. I have anxiety about my wife and I situation diag. w/ ADD in 01/2011 now on med ist time out of work 4 over 2.5 yrs I wish you and your roomate the best.