I am up because I can't sleep! This is pretty normal for me. I have the ups and downs of being bipolar. Sleep too much, or I don't sleep at all.

As for being a stalker, it is kind of an invasion of their privacy when we do that isn't it? I guess I just wanted to see what her economic status way. Is she way above me? About equal? I found out that she is above me, but its not that extreme. I know her husband has a high paying job (at least I think that line of work would pay well).

I once told her what we bring home monthly in our income. She made a comment that that was a fairly good amount of money. It made me wonder about her. I always thought she was making SO much more than we are. I mean, my husband lost his job three years ago and is now on disability. I do work full time as a teacher, so you can guess that's not a lot of money, but it is a decent salary.

I feel better knowing that she is not so high and mighty. She has never asked like she was. It was probably my own insecurity about it. I tell her all this nutty stuff in our sessions and wonder if she thinks I live in the slums or something! Not sure why I put that together. I mean, there are plenty of people who live the life of luxury that are pretty messed up!

She did mention once time that one reason she went back to work was to pay for her children to be in private school. I bet they could do that without her working, but what do I know?

This is all really a bunch of nonsense. I live in a nice home in a nice neighborhood. I guess you would call it about in the middle range. Not too low, not too high for this area. I am blessed to have what I have. I know that. I don't need to be comparing what I have to what she has. It shouldn't even matter.

I won't EVER tell her. NO WAY!! I did tell her when I found some pics of her online. I wasn't stalking her that time. It was innocent. That is why I told her. I didn't have a guilty conscience about that. I DO have a guilty conscience about this because I did it on purpose!