I'm so sorry you're feeling so down and I'm glad you're here at PC! I'm sorry about everything you've been going through. we know what the "let's be friends" line means--let's not be friends but I'm trying to make me sound like less of a jerk. I'm sorry he's not the one for you but I think it's a blessing in disguise. heartbreak is the worst and I'm sorry you're going through this.

have you tried any temp agencies to look for work? something would be better than nothing at this point and would be good for your spirit. I know when I was out of work last year it was far too easy to be depressed being alone, no money. I really feel for you and your situation. take care.