Hello Ellensue, I am very sorry that you are experiencing such sorrow. I too am experiencing great sorrow and that is what led me here to this site. I read somewhere that a good possible counter to helping to deal with your own sadness is to help others with theirs. It's not so much that misery loves company, but to me, it's more that people who are down, sometimes just want affirmation that they aren't alone; that there isn't anything wrong with them and the way they feel. Please know that there is an endless circle of support for you, even if an online site has to connect you. I would love to help in any way I can.

I agree with Suki22 that having a job will likely help tremendously, even from a temp agency. Perhaps even volunteer work to help you get out there and your mind muscle working on other ideas. I have a hard enough time getting through my sorrow while I have a busy life schedule. I can only begin to imagine how difficult it must be without other things to keep you moving.

Please do not lose hope. You are welcome to PM me and maybe we can bounce around other ideas? Best wishes.