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I just could not get through the A.A. or Recovery Int, because they
don't teach you how to deal with when someone owes you amends but
refused to be aware it even happened.[quote]
I can't do AA, Rational Recovery or any of that either ... It just doesn't work for me ... It took me a while to realize that my abusers were never going to acknowledge, much less apologize for all the evil @#$%! they did to me ... That's when I realized I just had to hand them over to whatever that Higher Power is, and move on with my own healing and recovery ...
It still smarts sometimes that I never got "justice", but I'm so much better off now than I was then ... They're all dead now too ... So in essence I won, because I'm here and healthier and they are not ... Hope that doesn't sound to trite or simple ... Because it's not ... And it was very painful for a long, long time ...
Contact your local domestic violence center and/or shelter ... They'll give you a place to eat and sleep, counseling, help with finding and keeping a job, etc. ... Do it today ... Okay?

(If okay) ... And wishing you the best so that you WIN too ... !!!