malyce, I'm glad you stopped when you did. I'm so glad to hear from you & know where you are, that you are safe.

What very much concerns me is that you are confusing an intricate--possibly to the point of self-harming??--re-living of a deeply disturbing and recent experience with updating us.

Please, when you come back here, don't pick up where you left off. Just focus on you, whether you stayed in the hospital, did they help you?

You will have a support system, I hope, now, outside of this family-bound life that gives you none. Build your PC connection, too, if you can--it can become more valuable as time passes.

I'm confused tho. Is this Ish person your husband? I don't remember from before. Why are you not allowed in the basement?

Roadie