#1 We understand those feeling of anger and hopelessness here... so feel free to vent, discuss, ask for support, ask for a cyberhug... whatever. That's what we are here for (be aware that suicidal posts are forbidden here... if it ever gets that bad for you you should call your doctor or hospital or a hotline number immediately. Hopefully with support you won't get to that place)

#2 Do the people around you understand what you are going through? I know you prefer not to identify it as an illness, don't stick to that though if it would help others around you understand this is not something that you are doing "purposely" or out of laziness or something. You seem quite well spoken so hopefully your friends and family understand the situation as you describe it.

If you can talk to them about it try to make them understand that a lot of the anger you feel is not because of them. Another problem with depression is isolation and pushing people away. Make sure they know you aren't mad at them, and make sure the people who provide you good support don't step back because they mistakenly think you want them to.

#3 if people understanding are a problem I wrote a paper that might help it is as http://www.idexter.com