First I want to say I am so sorry you are feeling like this! It is not a fun place to be in, but it does get better. You and I are close to the same age, so I want to say I kinda understand where you are in life. I do not and will not ever claim to know exactly what you are going through cuz everyone is different, but I can relate. Graduating high school is exciting, but scary at the same time. You are so excited to “start your life” but you are also terrified to move on from what is comfortable.

I also know college is very scary and overwhelming when you first start. About 2 weeks into my freshman year, I called my mom hysterical, wanting her to come get me! Its common to feel scared and alone! You are usually going somewhere, where the area and all the people are new. That is scary for anyone!!! I think that it is great that you are still enrolled in college. It’s a step! I know its easier said than done, but could you maybe take one or two classes at a time? Just take it slowly.

I would highly suggest trying to find something you love. I know this is a very difficult thing to do especially without any motivation and when you feel like you have lost your way. For some people it takes longer to figure out what they want to do. If you can’t figure it out, then maybe hold off on college for now and get a job? I would suggest staying in college, but maybe it isn’t for you right now. I would also suggest joining something around your college campus. I joined a sorority and my life changed forever! Join something that interests you and you will find people that share that same interest.

I recently graduated from college and once I graduated I went through a period of depression where I felt like I had no one to turn to, no friends, and no motivation. My dad always says “you have to get angry enough to do something about it.” He doesn’t actually mean get “angry” but to just get fed up enough with life that you want something to change. Once again easier said than done. I started therapy and then I started to pull out of my depression and everything elso I screwed up and I found a decent job. It took a few months and I was very discouraged, but somehow things work out. That’s the advice I can give to you! Try to keep your head up! Try to find one good thing to focus on each day! Try to find something you love! And give yourself a break and do what you can to keep going because things will work out eventually!

I hope this helps a little and I hope things start to turn around for you