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Old Feb 12, 2012, 07:43 PM
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Originally Posted by swimmergirl View Post
Squiggle, this made me smile. I have done this with my previous T and with my current T. I'm not sure if you should tell or not. I would recommend if you do tell, say it about "another person"...........such as I looked up all this info on my ex-boyfriend and I'm not sure why or something like that. It also sounds like you want to protect your T from anyone else looking her info up.............which is sweet..........it means you care about her. She may honestly not know but you can tell her in a way that is not direct..............such as "I Squiggle looked up all this info online about myself and I could not BELIEVE how easy it was".

I told my first T I had looked up his info. He did not handle it well in my opinion. He was nice and all but I felt like he looked at me differently after that. My current T knows I did with my previous T, but has never asked me if I did with him............thank goodness. I'm way more attached to current T than previous T so of course I have looked up even more stuff, but I have found it as a way to connect with him and honestly, curiosity. I don't ever plan on telling him. If he asks me............I dunno, but he hasn't yet.
I don't think I can live with this guilty conscience. It will hinder my progress in therapy. I have to come clean. If she kicks me to the curb, then I will have to deal with that, but I can't resort to old patterns and hide things. Not that you have to confess everything you do with people, but with her, it is all about honesty.

I think I will send her an email the night before to give her a heads up that I have something to tell her that she may not take too well. That way she can be somewhat prepared. I am sure when I get to my session, I will freeze up, so I may bring bits and pieces of this thread and let her piece it together.

I might crawl under her desk or walk out of the room, but this is not something that I think I can hide from her. I just can't do that.
Hugs from:
lostmyway21, rainbow8
Thanks for this!
karebear1, rainbow8