okay, deep breath...............ommmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

there is a mountain here called Mt. Scott. it is small in comparison to mountains in the western and northern states. i've walked up it many times. it is three miles to the top and the road winds around and around. it takes me 51 minutes to walk it. today i feel like i walked up and back about 4 times..instead of one.

i'm not sure where i'm going with this, but i'm going. for the 7,000th time, this isn't about me. and i'll play any way that i can get by with. this is about so, so, so many hurts here. if i can stand here and take the heat, then i will.

i guess for some people here, there's a "strata" of people that they don't know about. at least my PMs indicate that.

i appreciate that some are worried about me. i do have a lot on my plate and what is on my plate now is teensy compared to how some people here feel. i have feelings also. i am really hurt when i see hurt. i'll post about my feelings/rejection issues in relationships.

i'm still no poet. but i have a heart.

please get over thinking that i am thinking about what is "going" on in the new forum. i'm thinking about what is going on out here. i was just thinking and every job that i've had, but one, has been face to face with human beings. teen detention counselor, substance abuse counselor, ER, kidney dialysis, framer, B&B....so, i've always had "relationships" with people. i've never been in the backfield.

p.s. someone PMed me this a.m. and when i tried to answer, i couldn't. let me know how to reach you. xoxo pat

p.p.s. so much is being made of my involvement in this....how about reaching out to someone you've never talked to and give them some support today? i'm just a wispy little breeze that is blowing through. others need more than i do.