Dear T,

I so appreciate your responding to my email while you were on vacation and I'm really sorry not only to have sent an email (though you said that I could) but also not to have waited until the mood passed before sending it. You work so, so much - 6 days/wk of clients + teaching and you write me emails as early as 8am and as late as 11pm - and almost never take vacation. You probably needed a complete break from your work. I know you said that I could write, but I just want to thank you again - it's so generous and I promise not to write again until you are back. I actually don't miss you too much (like I did when I was gone for the holiday or your one-week trip in September) - I mean, you're only gone 4 days, 2 of which are over the weekend.

This was a tough week - a really emotional appointment on Tuesday with our signals a little crossed. It was hard to see your frustration w/ me, not that I don't understand it. Thank you for checking in with me that evening. It means so much that you called me before your daily call to your mom on the way home from work. I really felt cared about and loved (and thank you for saying when we talked that you love me). And I'm glad that we could meet for longer on Friday to talk about what was going on for both of us. I didn't realize that my constant fear that you'll leave me was triggering you... and I appreciate your looking inside of you to figure out just what I triggered.

Sending you a big "enjoy your vacation" and "I just can't thank you enough for everything" hugs. I'm going to be OK and we're going to be OK.