I am 31 and have bpd. My mom died 3 years ago when she was 49. My dad died 15 years ago when he was 46.

The only difference I have seen between myself and my siblings as we were coping with these deaths is that they seemed to allow their emotions to come and go freely, while I stuffed everything away.

Losing a parent is incredibly hard, but as one who has, I want to tell you that yes, parents can and do die young, but enjoy what you have. Do things together as though today is the last day you'll have.

Spend the time together enjoying it, not worrying about when it will end. If you spend all your time worrying, when she actually dies, you will always think of the things you could have enjoyed had you not been worrying