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Originally Posted by lost in termination
This is what I meant earlier about regaining some control (when we are feeling out of control)? Is a better way to describe it is that you want to level the playing field more? Or, do you want to punish her?
I like your honesty, Squiggle. I think your T appreciates that about you, too.
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I think your words are more accurate. I want to 'level the playing field'. Why? Why does it matter at all who she is, where she lives, etc....?
No, I don't want to punish her, but I have to admit, there is a part of me that wants to be mean to her. I don't get that at all. I don't know why I would want to do that. I would never do it, but there is that part of me that wants to sometimes.
She reminds me when things get tough in therapy that she is "
there to help me not hurt me." I often feel like I am being hurt, though. Not by her, but by the things that come up in her office. She just happens to be the person in the room with me, so my anger is directed toward her at times.