hey, drskipper - i think this fantasy will play out when you come to the realization that the chances of it being fulfilled are VERY low. we all have sexual fantasies but, when they don't pan out, we have to reevaluate whether they are worth the cost in time lost and love lost. fantasies are one thing; reality is another. living your life with unrealistic fantasies will, after time, grow painful because they lead nowhere. perhaps it's better to reign in your fantasies and aim for something that is attainable - like a straight or bisexual man who CAN fulfill a fantasy of yours. all the best to you.