I turned 50 @8 months ago. My husband of 16 years is 40 which wasn't a problem until a couple of years ago. I have had a LOT of difficulty keeping my ego and self-esteem in check for about the last 2 years. This weekend was a killer. I had a few negative things happen back-to-back over only about 2-3 days when finally it hit like a ton of bricks this past Saturday. I haven't been able to accomplish a single thing since. I'm hardly sleeping and barely eating. I can't move!! I'm trying to understand why I've allowed myself to get like this and how I can get out of it without having to be medicated. I haven't been on anti-depressants in @8 years. I don't want to go back because they make me gain weight and self-image is one of the biggest problems I have right now. Has anyone else experienced aging related depression or have any idea what this is? BTW, before the answer of hormones is brought up, I'm on HRT and it works very well for me so I do not believe hormone imbalance is the problem here ...