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moremi · Feb 13, 2012, 01:33 PM

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Originally Posted by argv

Well, I've been through alot this last week, just thinking about how my new knowledge of myself will pan out. Up to this point, I believed (unrealistically) that I could find a career and keep a job for the next 30 years, but I also didn't realize that it's not 'normal' to just feel like you are barely surviving life every day.

Anyways, I'm considering applying for disability only because I now realize that my behaviors and such are not ADHD related, meaning that my violent feelings and thoughts are real, and my "spaciness" that I thought just came with ADHD is perhaps a little bit of psychosis.

While I'm not going to sit here and tell everyone I'm "more messed up than you" or anything, I can say that my life has been wrought with craziness, bad decisions, violence, and a yearning for death.

That being said, I think me being on disability would be more for the people I work with, than for me. I can manage on very little money, and it would open up a spot for someone else to have a job that has a family, and a future.

Does anyone have any thoughts on this?

It doesnt always take years to get it, atleast not in my case. I do have more than bipolar. Also bpd, adhd, agorophobia and anxiety w panic. I applied online by myself and was approved 2 1/2 months later. Its important that they see you have been seeking treatment and not well. They also check into your work history, al of my jobs were ended bc of my illness. I know its not the norm to get it that fast but it does happen. I had also alreadybeen out of work for two years and in and out of mental hospitals. I just knew I could possibly never function in the work field like a normal person can. I often got paranoid and of course all of my emotions were so much more intense than the normal persons.
For me it was thebest decision. I hope you do whats best for you.