Don't beat yourself up over the needing the alcohol to socialize. That's pretty much what everybody does.

Alcohol is the social lubricant of the masses. It makes it ok for people to act stupid. It's just a terrible drug in general.

But if you're really not trying to go hard with the booze then you are going to have to try your hardest to find other things to do especially since you've turned 21. The fact that it's so acceptable is what makes it the devil.

And waking up, feeling like ****, and drinking again to feel ok is no way to live.