Indianman, I have great sympathy for you, especially with regard to your studying other penises and feeling discouraged. That is easily done with all the erotica that is available on the net. There are a lot of mammoth examples. Also, as a latent bi-sexual that enjoys looking at the male genitalia, I feel your concern about your orientation. I have accepted mine, although I am unable to be active. Blessings to you in your search for your true identify.