Yes, I can relate.

The pain runs very deep. T asked me a question once about my body and I felt so sad and far away. She said I looked sad but I was not able to respond.

Good job going to the gym! I also joined a gym and go almost every day. I've lost 20 pounds from last summer, but I still feel repulsive. My friends tell me I am thin, but I see fat.

This subject makes me feel very very sad.