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Originally Posted by beautiful.mess
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I just got done reading this entire thread and just wanted to give you a good, safe hug. I (as well as pretty much everyone going through therapy) know EXACTLY what it feels like to have to go through that one-sided, uneven balance of the therapy relationship. It's so unnatural, and so difficult to make peace with.
You have NOTHING to feel badly about. You did nothing to harm either yourself or your T with the info you found. It was sought out to calm a very natural, very rational curiosity. She obviously means a great deal to you, and you ARE investing a LOT in your relationship with her! Be good to yourself; LOTS of hugs for you!!!
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I am glad that you responded. I came back in here to delete this post. I felt that maybe you guys would think I was lying to my therapist. I wasn't lying, I just wasn't telling her every detail of what happened that night. I wish I could read between the lines of the email she sent back to me. I always tend to read some negative message in them. I can't tell if she is bothered by this or not.
Can you imagine how embarrassed I am going to feel when I have my session on Wednesday? I hate it when I feel so inferior to her. I feel like a little kid going to the Principal's Office. I don't want her to have this much power over me, but she does. I give her that power. It's my fault that this happens.