Squiggle, I read your email to your T and didn't think you were lying. I thought it was an excellent email. Please don't worry so much about Wednesday. I'm sure it will be fine. I understand about not wanting to feel inferior to your T. I'm that way too and I'm sure many others feel that way also.

I remember being scared when I had to face my T after emailing her that I drove by her house. She was honest and told me she didn't like it, but she wasn't angry, just curious about it. I was glad I told her and apologized but I don't feel guilty about it now. I accept the part of me that does those things. I hope you can accept that part of you too. I'm sure your T will help.