Dear T,

I hate the fact that you hold so much power in our relationship. That sometimes I need you so much my heart hurts. Sometimes I wish I could be a little girl, teddy bear in hand, crawl up in your lap, and let you hold and rock me until I feel safe and loved and no longer so scared and vulnerable.

I'm working so hard lately to not make you the center of my life, but it's been a really difficult couple of days for me. My thoughts keep straying to you and the safety of your office, and your soothing voice and compassionate manner.

Please be patient with me as I struggle to find my independence, it's been a long time coming. And the little girl inside me is still so needy