Thanks for all the feedback so far. I'm sad - yet relieved - to see that I am not alone in this. It's such a painful topic, and I'm trying to be curious about what will come of it, but I'm scared....And I'm not entirely convinced that by getting to the root of where it stems will make any impact on how I see myself.

I have lost about 20 lbs. in the last month by changing my eating habits and going to the gym....but I still have a loooong way to go. And for some reason, I'm even kinda scared to lose weight. I don't want people looking at me..... *sigh*