I can definitley relate... with my trauma, right after it I starved myself.... i've also done SI.
i know recently i had an experience where I was getting revelations about my relationship with my body- and how I connect some of my trauma to the fact that my body is bad and I do not like it. I'm thin though... but, that doesn't change how trauma makes people feel about their bodies...regardless the size of our bodies, it effects us all...
how have i overcomed it?
well, i dont starve myself anymore.
i try to eat right
and mainly, Yoga is teaching me what it means to have a positive/ healthy relationship with my body...
even when people are saying certain stuff in Yoga I frequently affirm the positive qualities about who I am in my head. and i talk about my body- in the opposite way of someone who might have experienced trauma would.
i say it's good. it's healthy and strong. i say whatever i want and often times I stretch however I want (simply becus of my back pain) I don't make Yoga what everyone else is doing and try to be like anyone else. I don't repeat everything the instructor says. I do whats best for me. I say (in my head)- what's best for me. Yoga, is part meditation so it's helping me establish a healthier image of my body.
i still hate looking in mirrors though. don't know why. really haven't explored it. cus I don't think I'm ugly at all. I think I'm average looking... and on those 'special' days out with the friends I'd say I'm pretti darn cute....
still, don't like mirrors tho!
i can relate,
your not alone
Jazzy
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