We have talked about goals etc. and agreed(when I was just agreeing for the sake of it) the within a year we will either build or buy a house and go from there. This isn't what I want. I feel like I'm not being heard and anything I say dosn't matter.

About to go and have a T appt. Haven't been in the mood I'm in now for one yet.(which is why im going) I hope I get something out of it. This is the closest I've gotten to breaking it off in a while. Just seems unfair.

Makes me feel not good enough.

Makes me compare my life to his ex's.

And reminds me that he has made mistakes and he's not taking a chance with me.

Anyway
I shall fill you in!