The weird thing is that I really don't feel inferior most of the time. She doesn't make me feel that way at all. But there are times when I feel that my issues make me look so much less of a person than she is. I guess if I knew her quirks and things, I might think differently.

I wish that I could trust her more than I do. I think I do trust her, but obviously I don't or I would not be worrying about this. I am not going to lose sleep over this (again), but I do have a knot in my stomach when I think about it. I don't know why she wrote in her email that I seem to try to sabotoge therapy when things are going well. That is something I will need to ask her about.