Knowing you blew it, feeling like your heart turned to ice and the other person cracked it in half with one kick of humiliation. Feeling like the idiot when your just hurting. Knowing how badly you messed up and there's no fixing any of it; wanting to be understood and each time you try to explain any of it; it comes out like burnt ash. Im so lost and I created this disaster.
I want to fade into oblivion.