Any time i get in to a conflict with someone, even if its just a yelling match, or under go any kind of high stress. I begin shaking, i feel like i need to run away, i feel overwhelmed and i start crying like un-controllably and im supposed to be a grown man at 30. I cant control this happening and I dont know what its happening either. It started happening a lot after I was sick with HIV 10 years ago, but I've noticed I been going through emotions. When people dson't seem to understand where I'm coming from, argueing, family fighting, parents argueing . After this i started shaking and getting extremely upset and i was nearly in tears. Then i leave, ive been extremely depressed ever since, not to mention im going through all kinds of stress, financial and health problems. Sometimes I don't even know why I care about my health or going to a Dr anymore or why I even fought for my life.

Im going to my doctor tomorrow and im gonna ask her/him if there is anything she can do so I dont feel emotionally hopeless, a wreck and feel like i want to be dead all the time.

OK, It's getting closer to my birthday. 1 day away Feb 15th. I'm turning 31. At this point feel I been given up on, nobody cares anymore or don't want to help out. Even my own family the people I live with. It makes me sad, depressed and so emotionally hurt and can't seem to get passed this. I think why do I go through this everyday and all I did was fight for my life and I have nothing for it. All I'm trying to do is a great thing and race for a good cause. Feels like I have nobody by my side at all. Makes me feels like a complete *** & loser. I can only do so much. Thanks Alot!!!!!!