yes I have gone through integration and yes it sticks. I have been integrated for a few yrs now. yes it is the strangest feeling to be one whole person again. you will get used to it in time.

advice - take each new feeling /emotion/ memory that you now have access to, one step at a time. if for you its like it was for me, there will be times when you will feel more than one feeling/emotion at the same time and it may feel like its too strong, smothering or drowning / over whelming. when this happened to me my wife would sit holding me and saying over and over again - no these feelings are not too strong for you now, you can handle them everyone would not have merged with you if you were not ready for this. tell me what it is, come on feel it and say it, say it so loud people in the next county can hear what you are feeling.. she would keep talking to me. my therapist, family and others that knew were the same way..it may seem bad during it but you can handle it and you wont drown and wont smother or be buried under the weight of feeling all these things now. Just take it slow and one thing at a time and reach out when the bad times come. pm me anytime. I only get on here about once a day but I always read and try to answer my pm's every day.