It's a question that's been rattling around in my brain for a bit. My only official diagnosis is BP2 and an unspecified learning dissability, but I know, and the doctors know, that there's more.

I have another appointment at the end of the month to see YET ANOTHER BP specialist, but the last appointment I had the doc's drew a venn diagram to show my parents what I looked like... SO MANY CIRCLES!

They suggested BP2 (although highly abnormal), ADD, and a personality disorder (although that one came way out of left field for me, my T, and my parents, and my aunt who's a doctor and been working closely with getting me treatment). My T and others in my life says I definitely have a dissociative disorder (I agree... it's hard to miss), and I have a lot of symptoms of social phobia and the starting of agoraphobia. I refuse to tell professionals about my religious beliefs because they might misdiagnose as psychosis (they're strange, I admit, but there's a lot of theology behind it!), and I don't want to tell anyone about my sleeping issues because I don't want to get diagnosed with narcolepsy because then I lose my license. And I just put up with chronic pain because I have other things to focus on. Other people have mentioned PTSD symptoms to me, but I don't even want to think on that because there's so many things that are apparently wrong with me!

Seriously! It's getting frustrating... I miss when I was just bipolar, and I feel attention seeking with so many labels attached! I feel with so much going on in my head, I can't possibly get help! My T wants to help me with dissociation, and all I want to do is be able to leave the apartment and go to school, or start work again, and stop feeling like I need to be beaten for leaving the house messy! BP has seemed to be left in the dust, and it's just so frustrating because it's still apart of my life! An hour for T only covers what has been going on in my week, and there's not enough time to get help for everything.... frack, I agree that there's a lot going on, but I just can't seem to get the help I need because there's TOO MUCH! (and the long wait before the next appointment is no help...)

Well, that's the end of that rant. I think it made me feel better just to get all of that out there.

Anyway, that's my thoughts on that. Help anyone? Any experience, or any idea of how to streamline things so I can actually start making progress? I just want to move on with my life, get back to school, and be able to live without calling my mom four times a day for company doing grocery shopping, or because I can't move again.

(I accidentally put this in General Chat, sorry! Moved it myself to here)