Since I've gotten back from my week long conference (and during it as well), I've felt more disconnected and unhappy then usual.

I had one of these slip-ups at the beginning of the school year, mostly around Oct-Dec.

I'm scared because I don't want to go there again but the amount of time I'm spending sleeping and feeling out of it and miserable and my ability to spontaneously cry at nothing seems to be pointing me in that direction.

I don't know how much posting I'll be able to do for the next while, because I don't know what to say. I'm just numb, sad depressed and with a knot in my stomach and all other sorts of physical things, I don't know what to do to solve any of it.

I want to be able to support everyone but I don't know that I can. I am so sorry, because I genuinely care about each and every one of you.

So I guess this is me still hanging around the site and sporadically being in Chat, but not really doing any posting.

What am I going to do about any of this.