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Originally Posted by Switch
Alright, I'm going to just be really honest. I don't think disability is a good idea. Maybe it's just because of the people I know, but I think it's worth trying to keep with it.
I've been on sick leave for the last few months, and had to drop down to a part time student, and even though I definitely needed it, it's been hell. Not having anything to do in the day can drive you even crazier. It's made me feel more worthless than I did before I was medicated!
I know it's really hard, but that's what makes it worth it. How much it sucks can be the best motivator sometimes, because at least it gets you out the door. If you do decide to go on disability, make sure you have things lined up that you can do - a volunteer position, and a lot of arts and music. And set it up like a job.
And try and get off it! Try and find something to do. I know my career is going to be penniless (My life goal is to be a story teller... it's a mix of theatre, history, and writing without the intent to publish), but it's something I love and it's something I'm willing to fight for. Even if your joe-job is soul-sucking, keep it up and try and find a way of doing what you love and make that a career.
It's possible to find jobs that are flexible to bp. I have bp2, and I rapid cycle like no one's business (as much as 7 or 8 noticeable mood shifts a day without meds) and I'm not playing the 'I'm crazier card' because I don't think I am, but I do know that in the arts, that can be used.
I guess what I'm saying is that you sound like you're looking at disability as a way of not dealing with work... and I don't agree. I know that's not going to make me too popular, but I think the fight is worth it. Or at least find something you're willing to seriously fight for if you do.
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I have LOTS of other things I'd rather do!
seriously though, I dunno.. it's hard for me to keep a job is one thing, I mean, even on a good day I'm not much for conversation. I hear what you're saying (or writing), but I do have many other things I could do. Music is one, art is another one. Plus I love to write (like here, obviously) and my friends own a store in the mall selling tobacco (and e-cigarettes which I'm all about). I have another friend that writes fiction novels and wants me to write stuff for a possible magazine her press might release.
I have plenty to do, and I can't get any of it done working some ****** job that is difficult to even be at. I get bored at my job too, but I can sit in my room and play music non-stop. I can only imagine how good I would get if I had the time to practice.
That's beside the point of me having several back injuries, a painful lower back, scoliosis, some other random painful crap, and some pretty heavy mental and personality issues.
but again, it's mostly just that I have a hard time keeping a job and dealing with people. I'll actually be working harder without a job, than I do having one.