Today I am sneaking off to another city to see a new psychiatrist (not T). I am sneaking because she does not take insurance and I can pay a bit but my H is mad and doesn't want me to go, mostly due to expense. Also I am not supposed to drive that far. Also I don't need more doctors; I just need to exercise and quit having such a bad personality. The "B" in borderline, to me, means I have a bad personality and everyone knows this. Maybe a new doctor will tell me to shape up and charge me a lot of money.