It keeps getting associated with depression, so I suppose it goes here.

Guys, I've lost my motivation. I can't be passionate about anything. I just don't care.

I'm normally very driven. It's gotten me into the highest classes at my school. But now I lack the drive to do my work. I can't help but procrastinate doing my work (no matter its difficulty), if I ever do it at all. I'm the sort of guy who normally loves school, but now all I do is go through the motions.

None of my hobbies, running and studying (mind and philosophy and politics) and writing, ever really do it for me. I didn't even get much of a buzz from social interaction. For example, that dance we had Saturday. An hour before the festivities ended, I was already bored and ready to leave.

I dunno. Everything seems so trivial, but I don't know what matters to compare stuff to.

But I intrinsically don't like this. I at least care about finding something to care about. Just one fact rousing enough to ear my devotion to some great purpose — does one exist? I can't find one.

If this is depression, it's not like what I thought it was. There's no despair, in the deepest sense, and nor are there any suicidal thoughts. Just aimless wandering and a constant sense of disappointment — of unbridled absurdity.