So yesterday was my last session before my T's going away until early March. I had lots of things on my mind and was able to talk about most of them, but toward the end the cat kinda got my tongue and I didn't dare to talk about certain things (e.g. the intensity of what I think are romantic feelings for her - we've discussed them before but not in detail).
So time was about up and T said that I can still e-mail her about these difficult topics until Thursday.

So last night I sent her a long, honest e-mail where I basically confess everything I was too ashamed about until now (I had to get a little drunk to get the courage, but the e-mail itself is coherent and serious) - including that I often feel jealous of her boyfriend.

Now it's almost 3:30 pm the next day and I still have no word from T - I haven't e-mailed her often before, but in every case she'd replied before that time - and I'm getting all scared and paranoid that I crossed a line by mentioning my jealousy of her bf, and that she's mad at me now.

I don't know. I'm trying to tell myself that maybe she didn't have time to reply yet, or that she wants to wait until she has more time to write a longer response, but she's always just written a few lines in these replies, and like I said they were always quick.

I'm trying hard not to freak out right now. I don't want her to hate me. She knows about my feelings for her, she knows that it makes me sad I'm not "special" among her clients - but have I crossed a line by bringing her partner into this and making it "personal"?