(((((johnnyHOPELESS)))))

It takes time johnny to get over someone, it doesn't happen overnight, the posters here do realize that. Personally I was trying to tell you that, yes, you do need to have hope. But you also have to find a way to not base your life on another person johnny. None of us should depend on someone else making us happy to be honest.
I think that you have to try to think about yourself and what you can do to improve yourself. We simply don't meet partners just by watching the hours tick away until bedtime. Try to devote some of your day to looking for something that can add to your life in some way. It could be a class somewhere learning anything new.

I am just trying to be helpful, I know what it is like to lose direction in life. I know that it isn't easy to find a path again but you have to do your best to try something more than just allowing yourself to feel so hopeless.

Personally I try not to feed into my own issues. I struggle with depression that is related with my PTSD and I also am dealing with some troubling losses and ongoing issues. I try to find anyway possible to provide my brain with other ways of pulling it away from constantly circling around my own issues. I post to others here like I am doing with you. I remember the times when I did work out of troubling times in my life. If all I can manage is vacumming the floors in my home or doing something productive at all, I do it and consider that I did something positive that day. You could try to talk with a therapist too, it does help. Keep trying a little everyday.

(((((Hugs))))
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