I am sorry you are hurting, it sucks! You must feel like you need closer as she just up and left, no real reason that you know of right? I think she does owe you an explanation, it might be hard for her too. You really need to take care of yourself though, nobody want's some one that just sits around all day feeling sorry for themselves. Maybe it is time to get back to work the busier you are the easier it will be to move on or just forward. Life can be good again. Take care