Hello,

So, last therapy session my T said that most of the people with BPD had obsessive relationships with their therapists. I told him I knew that, but I didn't want that kind of relationship with him. It would bring me a lot of suffering.
He said he wants to be closer, and that this therapy (CBT) will only work if I feed my obsessive thoughts about him (which I am desperately trying to avoid).

This is scary. I feel like running away, because honestly I think it's too early for this, which I also told him. He told me that I'd be annoying as hell and that he would take all the s h i t I throw at him and help me, because it was the only way of solving my issues.

What do you guys think? It makes me soooo anxious I don't want to have this. I created some distance between us, I admit it, but it's a defence mechanism. Because once I am obsessed with someone, I really AM.

Hugs everyone...